A bit of pondering after a long absence...
(Don't worry, it won't be another convoluted mess. I'm 95% sure of it this time!)
I can think of roughly five distinct occasions in which I've performed publicly on various instruments and failed so miserably that I was in shambles for as much as two days after the fact. Likewise, there's unfortunately a couple of downright shameful posts on here that are so horridly contrived and pointless that my current self can't even find reason as to why or how my younger self posted them. The result of these, of course, is embarrassment and regret upon the slightest recollection, and a desire to profusely apologize to anyone involved.
But I think that these moments are important in the long run. In the case of the botched performances, they help us to recognize our weaknesses and challenge us to improve our playing, motivating us to be more dedicated in our musicianship. When our conduct is concerned, they hold us accountable and compel us to better ourselves. I admittedly still have slips of the tongue or miss a note here and there, but being mindful of these and trying to avoid them is something that I undertake more carefully. It doesn't erase the past, but heeds what it has to teach.
There's not enough time to keep making the same mistakes over and over again, nor is there enough time to make all of them yourself, so learn from mine and you just might be able to save yourself some of that embarrassment and regret.
--Tom
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